I know it’s been quite a while since I wrote here, a month actually, and I apologise. Life has swept me away a bit and I’ve been plugging myself into other things which meant I let this slide.
But I’m here now with a little life update!
So, Baby B now has 6 teeth! And she is in the process of cutting numbers 7 & 8, one of which is a pre-molar. These are absolute bitches by the way and it seems to be taking an age to come through. I don’t usually medicate her as she handles the pain quite well but I have definitely resorted to baby Nurofen & Calpol to get us through some of the days.
I can’t believe she is almost 10 months old, the time has flown right by me. I think I’ve been so focused on getting through each day, each week, that time as a whole has been a bit of a lost concept. I suspect that I’ve also got late onset post partum depression which kicked in just over a month ago. I haven’t voiced this to anyone, not even hubby, but I’m sure he’s seen the changes in me.
My temper is a lot shorter, I have less motivation to do everyday tasks around the house, less willpower to do things like cook dinner. I have found myself having to put Baby B down and step away for 5 minutes more frequently than I used to, just needing to mentally regroup before heading back for round 2..or 3..or 4.
I don’t think I’m at the stage where I need professional assistance, I’m handling it ok I feel, but I’m also aware that this tension is there within me and am constantly reassessing it to make sure it’s not getting the better of me. I’ve always been a very mentally strong person so this is a bit of a surprise for me but I feel I can get past it. I have so many things in life to be grateful for and I know how lucky I am even when times are not so great. Taking those 5 minutes to regroup has been invaluable in maintaining this outlook.
I think that is part of the reason I launched into working with the Body Shop At Home, along with the obvious financial benefits which can be attained. I needed something which would be just for me, something which would be fun and which I could use to socialise outside of the home without Baby B in tow.
I haven’t had a huge start with it but honestly I didn’t expect to. I don’t have many friends or family locally, don’t really know anyone in my area, and never went anywhere to meet anyone. That’s not to say I’m not happy with how I’ve done so far – £130.00 of sales and just over 70 members on my Facebook group. I was aiming for 60 by the end of the month so I’m pleased it’s growing well on there, now I just need to get them all interacting.
I came to the realisation that as much as I generally enjoy my own company, it can be a bit lonely at times and it’s sucks when you want to have an event like a BBQ or something and realise you only have 1 couple to invite to it.
I’ve started going to a baby play group on Thursday mornings to make some friends for me and Baby B, I haven’t even mentioned that I do The Body Shop at Home. I’ve noticed that people think that if I am doing something like this that means I’m instantly going to try and sell things to them or get pushy and try to recruit them to my team. I don’t even have a team below me as I’m not confident enough to try recruiting to be honest. And beside that, it’s not why I entered into it.
I’m launching a local shopping event in my local community centre to do some networking with local residents and let them know I exist which I’m hoping will be a success. I’ve had loads of interest from stallholders and am almost filled on that front; once full I’m going to remeasure the room to see if we can get some more in.
And…. a set of eyes are open and staring at me so I better get off and see to Baby B!